An Insight of Extended Aloneness

Sometimes I notice something different within me and even hours of contemplation doesn’t end up anywhere! What ignites this quest of finding answers! Which part of my emotional being is willing to contemplate new horizons! There are always activities that get transformed into thoughts and turn into the vision of life. And aloneness for sure is one beauty in disguise that allows different aspects of our being to go deeper into the journey of self discovery. When the process is on its way, there is no more fascinating phenomenon taking place within the vicinities of personal psychological world full of emotions and beliefs.

Giving ourselves time for self introspection and self assessment is one good thing that we can do for us. It not only makes us audacious enough to question ourselves, but prepares us to learn what we could do better, what can be done better, where we lack, what kind of learning’s our character is eagerly asking for. In fact, we owe a lot to this aloneness because the best of the learning’s we ever had, were the outcome of this space when we tend introspect our actions and responses and dare to be honest with ourselves. And it’s quite a revelation to comprehend that once we set out on the path of self exploration, life unveils the ultimate growth process to make us a more elaborated individual who is gradually gaining a wider space of thoughts, nurturing a relaxed approach to understand the intricacies of life and turning into a better human being. Moreover, to be able to even manage all those seemingly small things related to setting up home is surely an addition to overall growth for it makes us feel responsible for every single thing happening to us as it forms daily regime and the habits inculcated in daily life form the basic elements of overall character and well being.
But what if it seems to be prolonged beyond a certain limit? Am I no longer able to grasp the teachings such lonesome environment in the form of solitude exposes us to? Is there some radical change needed in the whole ambience? The mistake we are vulnerable to in this situation is that we adopt the ways of passivity. Probably that’s an ingrained tendency with human behavior and instead of closely experiencing those, we often opt to get away from them and seek for some immediate gratification, but being with it and letting our consciousness realize the essence of it can unveil a new paradigm of altering old conditioning and belief if they are supposed to be. It’s opening up of a new dimension of understanding which defies all pre-existing notions and even gives rise to undesired emotional responses. So it surely asks for some careful assessment.
There are few immediate and obvious responses like getting married, going back to India etc. In fact, these are two beautiful possibilities, which have certainly got the strength to change psyche, but since they are time and fate-dependent too, there is definitely something else as well where the answers of such anxiety lie. There could be few possibilities as far as I can understand. Nature doesn’t work that way. It can’t let dwell in despair for some time-dependent features to appear and merely waiting for the time to heal is of little help, so there exists an appropriate response for us to take. We have got the spiritual dimension in our being, which is nourished by healthy anxiety of the mind to look for the poetry that resides beyond the usual aspects of dull prose. Where does it lead to? I contemplate, I behold.

Third Dimension

Happiness of being a couple lies in maintaining personal autonomy, but at the same time allowing both dispositions to sink in on its own, what it takes a lifelong relationship to work. Actually being successful in this quest of happiness largely depends on how you have been able to maintain two individualities fruitfully alive as two dimensions, which share a space on the path of exploration and nourishing the Third Dimension that comes into existence when two people come together for this beautiful relationship to share. They tend to create a common being of thoughts and feelings, filling gaps and holes in each other’s psyche. They cultivate it, live it, nourish it and share the joy out of it! In other words, a third dimension is developing out of interaction between two different combinations of soul, heart and mind. Each has its own shortcomings, traits and history of fears and understandings. But once they get ready to nourish it with love and affection with the perspective of constructiveness, they start getting into the grove of taking it to another level of consciousness, an intrinsic component of which is playfulness. Playfulness comes mostly from the interaction between layers of innocence, residing in a corner of heart that feels nothing but love and affection within the field of spontaneity. They enjoy each other’s company. They just simply love it! And this is what engenders out of this togetherness in the form of emotional intimacy and essentially is one of the characteristics of Third Dimension. Definitely, it has inherited the properties from both persons engaged in the relationship, but its sheer existence lies in this third dimension, third dimension because this form of playfulness was absent when they were not together.

It’s fruition of pure sense of togetherness, entirely governed by the spiritual connect they find between them. At some point of time in the process of nurturing their relationship, a beautiful realization comes that suddenly you are finding your expressions falling short in portraying what you actually have in your heart. You find it ineffable to replicate what your heart is feeling. That’s when this enchanting beauty of spiritual connect colors your expressions and just a glimpse of those emotions would narrate the entire story. In fact, there exists no other way of growing into this level of awareness since two unknown souls can only interact through the domain of spirituality. The idea of soul mates is not about having someone over whom you can place the burden for your happiness, but it finds its definition and achieves another level when they tend to create space where they can do mistakes and still remain lovable and adorable to each other with same intensity as before. Acceptance is the key and it begins with a promise, “No matter what happens, you are mine! We may not be best of the teachers for each other; we surely can become the better students!” and that’s how the scheme of evolution gets unveiled. When one falls out of step with the other, other has to carry the relationship with love, faith and trust until the one catches up again. Let the question “It never happens. There is something really wrong. He needs my help” arise in your consciousness instead of “I didn’t expect this from him. How could he do this to me?” [used masculine gender just for the purpose of ease, but it obviously applies to both genders! :)] but again the fact is that relationships are meant to be mutual, i.e., one has to accept the mistake, come to terms with it and learn and other gives space and helps in this process.  Giving yourself opportunity and others enough space to do mistakes and thereby learn is what makes relationships going forever. So obviously, this becomes so very significant for a relationship which is sanctified to transcend beyond the limits of lifetime. Though there may exist uniquely profound connection between two souls, to develop it into full bloom, it takes a lot of work and commitment from both. It starts with acceptance and nurtures into the world of unbound ecstasy where everything has culminated to be on a path of constructiveness with a beautiful touch of love.

P.S: Dedicated to two of my most amazing friends, an adorable couple Vijeta and Virender. They are two very intelligent and refined individuals with beautifully decorated spiritual lives and as I got to know them closely, I certainly sensed a beautiful manifestation of Third dimension between them! I mean one can distinctly see three dimensional growth of their togetherness in the form of Vijeta, Virender and their beautiful relationship! :) Next month, they celebrate their second wedding anniversary and I wish for them all the happiness, God’s kindness and blessings and they always remain the source of inspiration for each other and keep growing in all aspects of life.

Completed Two Years In Korea

22nd October, 2008 was the day when I first stepped in South Korea, so last Friday marked the completion of my two valuable years in Korea, valuable in the sense that it unveiled numerous traits, potentials, expressions, vulnerabilities that probably even I was not acquainted with. Anyway, that’s how this process of discernment unfolds, isn’t it! As time passes by and the way we get to define a learning process for ourselves and in turn learn to expose ourselves professionally, emotionally, spiritually, it sets us on a journey of awareness and if we set our mind to those cognitive processes, we are aware of the transformations we are going through.
Being away from your family and all the close ones and off from the environment that inherently interacts with the dynamics lying beneath surface static, is not as easy as it sounds. It took a real good time to identify with distinctive vibes this new environment used to generate. At times, it really questioned my state of emotional health. Even now, at times I do experience subtle emotional fragility within myself, or to say, a little aberration in my thought process and perhaps lose unison between heart and mind. But instead of adopting the path of passivity, I prefer to come to terms with it, realize it in its real form and feel the gratitude of having such beautiful people in my life that I tend to love them even beyond my control. So despite being in different sorts of negativities, I find myself closer to blissful state of mind. It helped me to go deeper, farther in the journey within. And as I try to scan through the whole picture, the words and phrases like Appreciation for life’s richness, absence of ego, humility, being receptive to all possibilities, allowing love etc resonate my mind and I feel the sense of gratitude for everything I have, everything I got at various junctures of my life. And I get reminded of the very pure and sacred truth that my parents have been the source of all the positivity’s that embrace me in this moment, with this state of mind because they are the ones who had sowed the seeds for the way I opted to learn!
The decision of coming to Korea happened to be a blessing in disguise since it produced a conducive environment for my overall growth as a human being and hopefully it would help me in taking important decisions later in life. So in a way, something happens in life that marks the beginning of a phase, which has a bundle of experiences stored in and touches upon the elements of growth. Life keeps bringing about new designs even as the old designs start to crumble and giving attention to these transformations along with nourishing them with the process of introspection sets us out on a journey that is there to teach the intricacies of our existence and help us to improve as a human being. Moreover, we need to extend this awareness, that assists constructiveness and in fact, we are living in the age where emergence of a global mind is necessary. We need to keep in mind that wherever we are, we are talking humanity, serving humanity. We all need to grow into a consciousness that helps us to feel universality and a profound context of commonality among all of us. We all wish to see peace, harmony, happiness around and thinking about the well being of Mother Nature is something we can take care of to start with. It is not very difficult to comprehend that if we all devote our energies to relationships and common well being rather than consumerism, we would all wind up much happier. Simple to say, our personal lives have to manifest those values that we wish to see on a global scale and in fact, that is the only way to bring out that never ending happiness and pleasure we all crave for and make our Mother Earth a better place to live.

Happy Teacher's Day!

Through this blog, it’s turning out to be a ritual for me these days to express my gratitude for everyone who has been a source of happiness and inspiration in my life. And today happens to be one of those very special days, which is dedicated to the exceptional people who are an integral entity of the society, who work as a potent catalyst in the growth process of the generations, who come into our life at some important junctures and enlighten us with their noesis, perception and knowledge. It’s Teacher’s day, a day consecrated to celebrate the people who transformed our lives through education, showing a path towards reasoning and knowingness.

In fact, in Sanskrit, there is a better word, Guru and has a deep spiritual meaning. Gu denotes the ignorance that we all human beings are in. Ru represents the radiance of knowledge that dispels this ignorance. Eastern history is just filled with so many great stories of Guru and disciple. Though the definition of deep devotion for a teacher is no longer that pure and untainted as it used to be, but the essence of the beauty in the relationship between a student and a teacher can never die, at least as long as this universe exists when it gets established between a mother and a child even before the life starts to exist in the outside world.

Working as an engineering professional, if I go back to the point when it all started, I remember the day I joined DAIICT in the year 2002 with purely no expectations and was not even ready to embark on this journey. Engulfed in varied forms of negativity fused with loneliness and solitary, I was surely with a blank state of mind and my mind was not even trained to engender thoughts fitting the requirements of that tough time. I was just dropped in the environment which was not at all familiar to my consciousness. Completely detached from the outside world that I was seeing around me, there was a glimpse of hope in the form of a professor having a glittering, sterling career who joined the college in the same year after serving IIT Kanpur for number of years. In the very first semester, He taught us Basic Electronics Circuits, a course supposed to lay the foundation of learning and to ignite the interest in electronics if a student happens to like it as a subject. With his phenomenal style of explanation, he not only sowed the seeds of electronics in minds, but also nurtured them to the extent where students can see it fulfilling their ambitions in the form of a career.

As I understand it, He is a person who has a great ability to impart the essence of the knowledge he has, using his eloquence and method of speech to make students understand it in the right context and he gives a pragmatic approach that helps a lot to go closer to complete the understanding of the subject. Everything is a form of information when we are first exposed to it and it turns into knowledge only when it finds a golden touch of such people’s perception and approach.

With his scholarly disposition and serene demeanor, he was the favorite of everyone since the very beginning, and for me, he was much more special because in the first semester, his course was the only one that my little brain was able to find a connection with. He inspired to enjoy the journey while keeping focus intact on the goal. I was a mediocre among the kind of students I used to see around, but still his methods were always helpful for me and I was gradually finding something which I was getting intrigued about. His amazing command over language and speech makes him a blissful speaker and I always love listening to him and in fact, since those initial days of college when It was difficult for me to even understand English, he has been a big force of inspiration behind my increasing inclination towards the language in general and particularly with English being an international language for communication, it motivated me big time to improve myself in that direction as well. I remember when he once philosophically said, “There is space for everyone in this world. So don’t get disheartened by the failures and with increasing competitiveness, they are just bound to come. So there is no need to worry and just be conscious to see whether you are learning or not.” Along with all those virtues and qualities, he is greatly in love with his work and greatly understands his duty and responsibility to catalyze the process of forming not only good professionals but also noble citizens. I can’t forget those college days when he used to be excited about every lab, personally teaching TAs about what they are supposed to teach, carrying out a demo of upcoming lab experiment, preparing write-ups and well thought-out plan about what he wishes to teach and let students learn. He is indefatigable in every context and his passion to make students learn has not faded away even a bit. He has been really instrumental in my growth process as a professional as well as an individual. So was a great pleasure to meet him in person when I was in India last year and since my trip to India is just around the corner, I wish to meet him again, flip those pages of past and receive words of wisdom from his very own experiences.

Thank you Sir. You have been more than a teacher for numerous students like me. Thanks for all your teachings you bestowed upon us. May God bless you good health and eternal prosperity and I wish you keep inspiring everyone around, for the years to come! Happy Teacher’s day.

PS: Dedicated to my beloved Prof. R N Biswas, who taught 3 courses to our batch of 2002, and it’s simply ineffable to describe a magical personality like him.

Gaze at first expression!

From what you were to what you are now, Life has got changed a lot! Your thoughts, your opinions, your perception, your demeanor, but perhaps you remain the same in a corner of your heart where an innocent, naïve child resides! He still loves to be in that childlike ambience, loves those little pleasures, and enjoys those small things which may be of little significance, but titillating and delightful! He keeps the semblance of innocence alive, more like an obscure beauty, which loses its discernible expression in the inevitable process of gaining maturity. At the same time gets scared of number of things, one of those could be this lovely, but extremely strange thing called Love, love for someone with whom life starts sharing itself, while going through the inevitable journey of pleasures and sorrows! All of a sudden, you start feeling very different unique music and tunes altogether, a symphony of gracious emotions, probably as a prelude to something that you have never felt before! It’s complicated! First expression quite unfathomable!
In the process of growing up, we undergo various transformations in our body, heart and mind. We get the ability to become more aware of things around us; we are more exposed to subtle effects and mind gets conditioned depending on the way we opt to learn. Heart turns more heedful to emotional adherences and sooner or later, we find ourselves on the journey, in the quest of attaining happiness, which has a very important component called Emotional health. Actually a time comes when we feel the subtleness of these transformations more than how we ever felt before. There comes the necessity of having someone very close to you, the desire to have someone with whom you can talk about things, which you have started talking to yourself only. As it is said that for your well being, it’s important to have someone whom you can share your passions with!
You are in the process of discernment. It’s natural and you tend to perceive it more clearly if you are spending some time in introspection, allowing yourself to focus on cognitive processes this heart and mind going through! Above all, it’s so lovely and fascinating indeed! You set your mind to it and there you know what I am talking about, more if you have celebrated “Silver Jubilee” of your life, not long ago! ;-)

Mother's Day

Mother, the holy medium between the Almighty and human manifestation - a sacred truth, expressing immense greatness of being a woman, who experiences one of the most beautiful and proud moments of her life when she embraces the novelist form of life, the very first time; The moment when she needs not any testimony of HIS existence! The instant when she feels HIM more closely than anyone else, narrating the sole truth of human existence when nothing but unlimited Ocean of love and affection has its meaning! A moment when the nine month long conversation between mother and her child, still unfathomable for others, starts getting heard a loud and creates an ambience, witnessing the inception of a new life…something, that can never be portrayed in words – The birth of motherhood, a bliss bestowed to femininity.

It’s mother’s day. One always runs out of words to define the greatness of a mother. It’s just that special feeling, which a mother has for her child, and the child owes it for life!

Being so far and away from my Dear mother, I miss her every moment the way a son would do, the comfort of her lap when you return home frustrated from everyday struggles of life and the confidence she imparts when she says with glittering innocence in her words, “My son can do everything!” Every expression with serene tranquility on her face would tell you again and again that you can do it, everything would be fine!

Despite being miles away, her magic is still there, but devoid of her physical presence and as I am so far, surrounded by lots of uncertainties, number of precarious feelings, her presence in heart always makes things metamorphosed to resolutions from the most complicated situations. And of course, whenever I am able to overcome any problem, or come out of any uneasy state, Heart knows someone is there, constantly delivering prayers and blessings every moment for my well-being!

Importance of Inner Vigilence

Life is an incessant journey of learning ourselves. It teaches us everything we want, to lead a life with self-respect and dignity. We just need to be attentive to our mind and heart. And at different points of time in our life, Nature takes the responsibility to make us learn what we really should.

To be able to do something in its right context and form is complicated to its credit; A form that is discernible to your own perception, which engenders out of your personal prerogatives and is confirmed by an acceptance from within that you would never regret doing that at any point of time in future. One really gets confused at times by the intricacies of circumstances and end up not to do something outside the block. But when we dare to be honest with ourselves and come to terms with reality, that’s when we do enjoy the adventures of life, while exploring many horizons and paths of possibilities. However, it depends on several important aspects too, one of them could be a good correlation between your thoughts and the ability to turn and manifest them into reality.

In fact, Life is about spending lifetime learning about yourself. As time passes by, we all get to know what is good or bad, right or wrong, more important fact is what and how we practice them.

We all are destined to get our share of pleasures and sorrows. Complacency may kill! Remorse’s and resentments may hurt! So we should remember that aftermath of every event, sad or happy should be to learn from what had transpired. Learning never ceases. The day we stop learning, life has really lost its inherent meaning. All happenings of life in the form of mistakes and accomplishments, serve as sources of learning. But the problem exists when we refrain to learn and to inculcate the learning’s in our own lives and in turn tend to repeat those mistakes again and again, or indulge in complacency.

This essentiality of learning, introspection and of being aware can better be called the process of inner vigilance, which needs to be practiced in order to attain pure intelligence in the form of core consciousness.