A trip back home-abode of two beautiful angels of my life-Next phase!

Trip back home is usually a parents-son affair, which is endearing as always, but this time it was even more than that. My elder sister along with my nephew and niece was around, so it was one beautiful feeling to be there, icing on a usually delicious breath-taking cake. Needless to say, I had such a great time and enjoyed it so very much that no part of me was feeling like coming back. Huhh…this transition is always difficult.
One big difference I have experienced over the years is that when you are with your parents, your close ones for whom you are an integral part of their lives and emotional space, everything is found to be falling in place, but when you are away, you make efforts and try to keep everything in place. That’s why I strongly feel that we always live two personalities, one which enjoys spontaneity, always feel like doing crazy things and hopelessly in love with what is happening around and other, which long for being of first kind, but feels responsible about keep creating reasons of happiness to enjoy while living the first kind. In other words, at the very primitive level of emotional health and consciousness where your heart enjoys its fantasy, you feel as if everything is out of place once you are away from those close ones, but soon mind comes into picture to suggest that big part of that happiness is because you are doing fine when you are away and you start coming back to normal and begin to clearly see what is important in the moment. So both personalities are important and they are very intimately connected with each other and help to make you feel collective and composed.
As I said, this transition is difficult, even as it’s always a beautiful information to have that you are hopelessly in love with those beautiful angels and love them beyond your control and every string of your heart knows that they reciprocate it beautifully.

A trip back home-abode of two beautiful angels of my life!

I am just back from home, after spending ten beautiful days with two beautiful angels of my life; two amazing people who have been the source and origin of tunes, the lyrics, and the symphony of every beautiful piece of music that Nature played in my life. Parents are just like that. It’s ineffable to express what they do for their children. Those words never existed and could never be invented! You just feel the eternal bliss of having them in your life. Obviously, the feeling to be with them, to be able to see them around each day when you wake up, is second to none and this feeling is more subtle and palpable when your heart knows, in the last few years it has spent just a countable days with them. 

Since the day I joined college, I haven’t been able to spend much time with them and just visited them during semester breaks when I was in college and now mostly at some of these festival occasions. Of course, I really miss them whenever I am away and I feel there is a different being in me, which lives its life only when I am with these two amazing people; I truly feel as if it resumes from where I left when I was home last time! You just feel so safe and secure; you can be that extra careless; you can show that extra bit of negligence; you feel as if nothing can go wrong with you as long as you are with them. You are not being judged and no matter what you do, you’re going to remain the dearest for them as you always were. Life just blossoms into its most beautiful facets. Being with them, you always find yourself full of strength. Subtle expressions on their faces with serene tranquillity tell you a loud that everything is fine; you are sailing through an ocean of love, just enjoy it. There is so much love and beauty; there is so much of it.

Like any son would do, I love them a lot. I adore them for everything they did for me. But apart from loving them as my parents, I also admire them for being the kind of people they are. I can indefatigably go on writing about their established ways of life. I feel one of the most amazing things Parents do is bringing out the spiritual dimension in a child’s being. The very first seed of spirituality is always sowed by the parents who devote their entire energy in shaping up their children’s life. They influence a child’s psyche in varied ways and making a child realize the importance of being connected to the source is one of them. As you grow up, many a times, it happens that you do something good and get appreciated for it, and suddenly you tend to ask yourself where it has come from, who taught you these things! And there you probably realize that it all flows in genes, their blessings get reflected in your deeds, it’s fruition of their lifelong incessant efforts in letting you learn the values they always wished you imbibe in and then create a niche of your own, keeping those values as soul of living.

It’s so amazing to still see that incessant powerful urge in them to give you more even when they have spent their entire life doing the same. Sometimes I wonder and feel like asking them, ‘what is that which is left in you that you haven’t given me!’ and with more than twenty five years of benevolence over me, still they are always ready to give. So amazingly lovely it is. 

Now since you are going through that phase of life when you have a bunch of experiences with you and formed an approach towards life, Nature tries to teach you new aspects of human manifestation fused with responsibilities and all those pertinent intricacies of it and if you are consciously attending these teachings, you happen to have these very discernible unspoken reverberations and unsaid conversations within, ‘Though they have done so much and introduced innumerable happiness in my life for all these years that I can't just pay them back even a bit. But still I urge YOU to please make me potent enough to know everything what they desire, what they desired when I was unable to lend a supportive hand; which crossed their mind even for a while, but sacrificed it every time while bringing me up because I want to give them that every small happiness! I know they would never tell me; so I ask YOU, the Almighty for strength. God, you have been so kind to me, introducing two extremely beautiful people who were the origin and source of every wonderful thing happened to me, introducing two angels for me even before my existence! Hopefully I could do justice to my life by understanding and doing at least this much!!!’

Parents are the two finest musicians of their children’s life and not wrong to say, they truly specialize in background music! You might be doing great in the central plot and getting all the accolades, and back of your mind, in the background, among the constituents of every beautiful thing coming to you, you know it very well there are these two incredible people, no matter if they’re far away, who constantly deliver prayers and blessings for your well being and form the strings of the music of your life.

Initial Feelings of Transition from Korea to India!

It takes a great deal of courage for you to be receptive to yourself while being ready for the exploration, which is a common underlying property of all existing souls. It desires to be explored in all aspects- professional, emotional and spiritual. Every mind has a life of its own. At any point of time, it does carry a positive or negative charge of thoughts, or it may not have any charge at all. You just traverse with them and reach a point when you are accompanied by another set of thoughts and mind moves on. These thoughts drive our mind to be on an incessant path towards fulfillment in all possible dimensions, leads to conducive space for self assessment and introspection and this fulfillment is not characterized merely by the Booleans of success and failure, but by the process that helped to refine our thought process. It unveils certain traits of our personality and helps to learn ourselves better and later remains with us in the form of experiences. And is it really necessary to weigh everything with a balance of success and failure and to impart imbalances to our mind, which looks for learning, to get better with experiences and most importantly seeks for the spiritual connection with higher self!

I moved to Korea few years back on a journey of exploration, which imparted a beautiful profound portrayal of thoughts and emotions. I feel the grace that it happened. After a very enriching stint in Korea, I am back to India, the place I was born, the place I really belong to! It feels great to be back. It was a feeling of being in heaven (if one calls it the place of most happiness), as long as I was in home with my parents. Just few days back, I came to Bangalore, started working and what I felt in these first few days came to me as a surprise disguised in the form of shock.

It’s even more surprising to state that I am really not in the best of mood after coming to Bangalore. Of course, there is immense positivity about coming back to India even as there is anguish over the deteriorated condition of almost everything. Then you tend to ask how much we care. How much we care about what is happening around. Few years back, Bangalore used to be called a paradise in terms of weather and climate conditions, but unfortunately my experience has not been very positive till date. It’s good and better than many of other states, but no longer as good as it used to be. I feel as if we have put ourselves for an incessant dual with Nature. It creates everything for us to have a healthy and enriching life, but we do almost everything possible to make our living environment and atmosphere worse and don’t really bother much to help Mother Nature in the process of nourishment of world. Then we face natural calamities as angered natural consequences and then we cry over what transpires. And the bigger fact is that we don’t learn from those our mistakes and soon we get back to our usual nature of being against Nature. Over the time we human beings have matured into such hopelessly shameless creatures that we won’t stop until it’s all over! So even if 2012 doesn’t bring the doom’s day, we are doing enough to let it come soon!

There is always loathing whenever such feelings crowd in. If we had devoted our energies to relationships rather than absolute consumerism, we’d have all been much happier and contended. Whenever we listen to the music of 70’s, most of us love it, instantly connect with it, so there is something in it, something in us in common that we tend to like it so much. We love the simplicity. We love natural aspects fused with innocence and civility in innovation. We are originally emotional beings. But slowly Serenity is lost in our relationships. There is so much noise that the voice of love is lost somewhere. We are losing out on the connection with a world within us. We don’t often want to face our consciousness which questions us repeatedly that you were not born like this, you were much better, what have you done to yourself! We have lost the dare to be honest with ourselves. In fact, the problem with human psychology is that long term threats don’t affect us much. We have this ingrained tendency to find immediate gratification, no matter if in that process, we might be digging a definite doom for ourselves. Yesterday was Mother’s day and the Mother who needs care the most is our Mother Nature. She is really suffering a lot. May God bless us with intelligence to at least inculcate few habits in our daily lives, which can help Nature to be able to nourish us for long!